Feb 20, 2011

When You Were Young

You know when things seem to be going just fine and then something pops into your head and you can't get rid of it?  That's what happened to me on Friday.  It was a rather busy day at work, but in the midst of all the chaos, a particular feeling had overcome me.  I felt a piece of my heart missing.

Don't ask why, but it just happened.  I carried on with my day and had a fun night at work, but still, that feeling lingered.  It wasn't a feeling that was new --- it had been active every day, coming on stronger on some days more than others.  I didn't know why on this particular day it felt increasingly more present in my mind.

Then, on Saturday evening, I was getting ready to go out and Joyce Meyer came on my iTunes.  She talked about something she talks about quite frequently, which was not letting your emotions get the best of you.  But she also talked about something that really piqued my interest: acting like a child.

I know, I know.  I'm always on here complaining about how guys are constantly digressing away from maturity, as if they were Benjamin Button or something.  By the way, I'm going to try to cut you guys some slack on that.  But anyway, she was talking about how when you're a child, you fully believe anything.  Your Mom can tell you an angel is always following you around and you believe that one is.  Or that Santa Claus is real.  Or that if feed your dog chocolate it will blow up (in an effort to keep you from feeding the dog chocolate).  You believed everything your Father and Mother told you because, well, you just did.  You didn't question.  What they said was the truth, and you didn't need any other reason to believe than that.

That's like God.  He wants us to believe and to have hope.  It's harder for us as we grow up because the first thing that we start doing as we mature from adolescence is wonder "why?"  As children, we constantly asked our parents "why?"  and now as we mature, we're asking God the same question.  Why is this happening?  Why am I going through this?  Why do I feel this way?  Why, why, why?

And we'll eventually fall into the answers when we're not seeking them, it's when we live through them that we'll realize why God closed a door, took someone away or brought them to us, placed us in a certain place, presented us with an obstacle or opportunity, or left us with a certain feeling.  It will all make sense at some point, it's just that we won't get the immediate gratification of an instant answer.  He wants us to live through the answer, revealing it piece by piece.

When we were young, we'd ask "Why?" and our parents would say "Because I said so."  As an adult, it's important to understand that while we can wonder why we're going through something, that we shouldn't question God's reasoning.  It's because he planned so.  Just go with it.  The benefit will be greater once we realize nothing God does for us is in vain or in an effort to bring us pain.  It's always to help us and make us better and happier in the end.  We're allowed to feel and to emote, but don't let those things get the better of your faith and trust in Him.

I encourage you all to have infinite faith and to say to God several times a day that you trust him.  Trust is a hard thing to come by.  I struggle with that every day.  But God is one person you can trust without worry.  He will only uplift you.

I have been young, and now am old,
yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken
or his children begging for bread.
Psalm 37:25

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