May 21, 2011

365

What a difference just a year makes.

If I think about what I was doing this weekend two years ago, I could tell you verbatim. I was at a very different point in my life.  I was sick, living in a new city and had no idea what in the world I was doing.  Not one.

If I think about what I was doing this weekend last year, I could tell you verbatim as well.  I was in Texas for the weekend.  

And a ton of things changed when I got back here.

Isn't it absolutely crazy how much can transform in the blink of an eye? I think God gave me this past year for a distinct reason, mainly being to prove that I can do so much for myself without others, but I also gain so much from having consistent, loving people in my life. I mean, 365 days ago I had never been to an awards show. Never taken an on-camera course. Never worked in PR in Los Angeles. Never had a salary paying job -- heck, I didn't even have health insurance. I still had my Texas plates and license (up until a week ago). 

I was a different person, completely, 100%.

And now I feel like I am the strongest I have ever been. If I didn't go through all of the highest highs and lowest lows of this year, I wouldn't be able to recognize a lot of things that I have been lately -- or more so, I wouldn't be able to recognize why things happened the way they did in the past.  Hindsight is always 20/20, right? You never know what the heck is happening as you live it, but later, when you're not searching for the answer, it will come to you and you'll have that "aha" moment.  I've learned that every outcome ends up the way it should, and that I can't base my own self worth on somebody or something else. These things serve for both my personal life and career goals, and I'm thankful God put me to the test, and surrounded me with so much love and support in my life.

I'm looking forward to the next 365 days of my life. I can say if you're ever in wondering why God makes you go through some things, just remember: it's always a part of his plan for your life, and it's always, always, always for the best. No matter what. 

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