I'm back! I was in a funk (I think) regarding the blog. I don't like to post just for the hell of it. So now that I've collected my thoughts, I think I have a few relevant posts coming up. Wahoo.
To be honest, I've been bustling around with a lot on my plate. Class, work, freelance gigs, finding an apartment and moving, working on my fitness -- it's been a little bit of overload. There have been plenty of times these past few weeks that I have prayed for peace of mind and stability. Stability in my relationships, stability with my emotions, stability with finances. It can all really overwhelm a person, especially if you feel alone at all. Loneliness leaves a lot of time for idle mind-wandering. It's like the devil's playground for crying out loud. Much like after midnight in high school, nothing good can from it. Nada.
However, I was at the gym one morning (why does 4:50 am sound great at 9:30 pm? Whyyyy?) (Honestly, working out in the morning is the best thing that ever happened to me. It sounds ridiculous but you feel so much more accomplished afterwards. Really. It's a struggle at first but much like a diet, it comes easier with time. Like... after three days you're golden.) and listening to Pandora when Darius Rucker came on. The song? "It Won't Be Like This for Long."
I've been rather in tune with my emotions lately, so it was a STRUGGLE not to have a full-fledged cry on the treadmill. I'm sure that would have been real cute -- the sobbing blonde chick running. But really, the song is touching. It has no direct tie to my life because it depicts a couple raising a child. However, the overall big picture applies to everyone.
Darius sings about the couple first bringing home their baby: the long nights, the crying, the lack of sleep. He fast forwards a few years to when he takes their child to preschool and she doesn't want him to leave her. And then the torturous teenage years, and finally when he walks his "little girl" down the aisle. The chorus:
It won’t be like this for long
One day soon you'll drop her off
And she won’t even know you're gone
This phase is gonna fly by
If you can just hold on
It won’t be like this for long
Round of applause? I want to meet Darius Rucker just for performing this song. So many of us need to hear the last three lines. Whatever we're going through, however we're feeling, whatever struggles we may have to endure -- they won't last forever. I mean, I know when I'm in a difficult situation, it's hard to see anything but that time and place. But I have faith that God will bring me beautiful surprises in the end.
I think this also applies to when we're going through something magnificent. We hear some celebrities discuss how thankful they are because they know it can all be taken away at any minute. It's true for all of us: we won't always be young, be beautiful, be as athletic or quick on our feet. These things can be taken away in the blink of an eye. Enjoy what you have now so you don't look back later and wish you handled it all differently. Hold on to the experiences, joys, tears, struggles; they'll make you a better human being.
I know a lot of my friends have and endure hectic schedules, long periods of loneliness or complacency, straight up confusion; devastating heartbreak, anxiety and even anger. Some might not know who they are or what they're doing. Some may be on top of the world, experiencing first love, embarking on a new, exciting adventure. But the advice remains the same, regardless of the situation: take in the experience. Learn from it and grow. (Learn-Bloom-Plant, if you will.) It won't always be bad; it won't always be good.
In the end, if you live life with your happiness dependent on how perfect things are going, you ever be fulfilled.